Am I confused, or am i confused...
I don't know anymore...
Am i cut out for this...
Maybe...
who ever said it was going to be easy... If someone did, run them over, pour lemon juice over them, sprinkle a whole carton of salt and... I don't know...
It never was from day one...
Should I walk away?
Can I try and take it by the horns and start wrestling...
If I do, will I have the strength to follow through...
If I don't, will I regret 20years down the track...
Should I walk away?
Should I walk away?
Should I walk away?
I should be tougher than this?
I thought I was...
I've been told not to let anyone despise my youth...
but circumstances present itself as too difficult...
Money...
Dreams...
Trust...
Boundaries.... Where the hell does boundaries start and end?
Friends? or Acquaintance?
Crap i cant write...
Masters?
Dreams?
Drive?
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
Trust...
What do you do when you do not know anymore???
Let it slip through your fingers?
Grasp it?
Stay tough?
Be weak and walk away?
Smile to the rest of the world, put on the brave face and hope one day it will pass?
Shut your trap?
Be vocal?
Trust...
Is this coherant? Not??? never mind...
Trust...
Fish for dinner... Fish that has been in the fridge for the last week... semi-frozen...
Chocolate... Its supposed to make you feel better... Is it???
Cocktails...
No not cocktail sausages u blitherin idiot...
Is friggin a bad word?
Pile of poo... Elephant poo?
Half a tonne of elephant poo...
Computers... laptop... speakers... subwoofer...
Phone... mobile phone...
Damn... the research paper might not be good enough...
Good enough? To what and who's standard?
Mine? Yours? History? Society? Government?
Trust...
I said trust...
Who?
you thought you were doing ok... but clearly you thought wrong...
you thought you've achieved quite a bit in your time and it is time to maybe slow down... but is it real or just your own imagination?
What if it was?
All you thought u've accomplished, was only accomplished in your head...
Or worse, maybe you just talk yourself up?
Do you?
Or maybe because you slowed down and things start to show...
Come on... make up your mind...
Stop messing with your own head...
Trust... damnit... i said trust...
Am I confused? Or am i seriously confused?
