Have I stepped onto the wrong path?
Why is it that when you try and please someone and meet their expectations, people say things... and yet when you make it a point not to run after and live up to people's expectations but do things in such a way suits you, people still say things?
Have I just wasted all my time, energy and life, or have i actually made a difference in the lives of anyone? What kind of legacy will I leave? Will I die and not matter at all?
Theres like 36 weeks till the end of the week... have I done anything right at all in the last few months? Or have I just been a waste of space, a waste of time.
I thought that battle had been finished... I thought there was a forward movement. But has all this just been a side step? A denial? A distraction?
Good enough...
Companionship? Trust? Servanthood? Leadership?
Responsibility? Wisdom? Patience? Strong-will?
Commitment? Accountability? Humility? Forgiveness?
Maybe not...
Isolation. Anger. Dissapointment, from self to self and to others, from others to self. Fakeness. Regret. Stupidity. Rashness. Weakling. Coward. Shallowness.
Why do we humans take things for granted?
Is there strength to keep going? Or does the road seem too dark and too long?
Why can't I just have 48hrs a day?
Define success. Define happiness.
