Friday, February 25, 2005;
Oh my goodness... it's been so long since i last updated... hardly home to be online... always in college... doing work.. I GOT BURNT TODAY!!!! oh i mean sunburnt not fire burn... Was out shooting on the beach for about 45 mins and got burnt... un-flipplin'-believable... OK so here's what kinda happened this week... still busy working on this video that's meant to be shown this Wednesday nite... NOT ENUFFF TIMEee... hopefully next time i dun get such late notice again...
So i've been told i need to get my showreel in on Monday... and all my work i did last yr's in another computer is out of college in storage due to renovations... Den Easter Production meetings have started... Easter's in 4wks... sigh and i've kinda had to take on roles of the Second yr's job 'cos there's no one else... added responsibilities and a whole pile of work.. all fun and games...
Anyway we had one class about training people this week and our principal asked everyone this question:
"What's subject did u hate most in school"
Most people said maths and science... i see a trend in creative people... hahaha
But i said: "I don't recognize chinese and chinese doesn't recognize me" He burst out laughing.. and so did everyone else in class... how funny hahaha...
Hmm Don't you just hate it when someone says something to hurt you but they're so good at words that they end up making you feel like you've wronged them instead?
Anyone else face this problem? I hate it. ABSOLUTELY HATE IT...
Don't know if i'm looking forward to orientation camp this tuesday... Overnight camp... and finish at 8.45am on Wed but back for lessons, which means i'll finish at like 5.30pm... craziness...
Anyway i might update another time... kinda run out of things i wanna say 'cos i'm upset... going to have my dinner... steam fish... haven't eaten much lately... just a bar for lunch and dinner a cup of milk or milo... no apettite n too tired to cook or eat...
Hopefully those of u reading this are fine...
Love u all out there...
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7:51 PMY
Thursday, February 17, 2005;
Urrghh... Dial-up really sux... takes like ages to load a page... just that reason alone puts me off updating my blog... ok so here i am after 5 days since my last entry. Sch's started but it's horrible... been waking up at 5am so everyone in the house can get ready on time... and my timetable's just DREADFUl.... so the need of the car's really really bad... i've got 3 little chickens under me... ok not really chickens... juniors in the first yr so i'll be oversee-ing most of their work this year. Feelin a little sick now from dinner... 'cos i had left over hokkien nooddle and an egg with canned curry poured on top of it... yea i know sounds gross but i had no choice... havent had time to do much food shopping or even cook since coming back! Ok so here's a breakdown of what happened...
Sunday night:
Arrived back home in Sydney at 11+pm... got quite a rude shock 'cos my room looked like a typhoon just "visited". And the floor and carpet was just full of hair, powder and worse of all DEAD BUGs... thing is till today i still havent had a chance to vacuum 'cos we havent got a vacuum cleaner and we borrow the landlord's which isn't available all the time. Tried to sleep but ended up only having only 30mins... fell asleep only at 5.30am which is like 2.30am in Perth/Singapore... at 6am the gals were up and bek and her cousin were making pancakes..
Monday:
As i was saying, i was up at 6am, started clearing up all the clothes n what nots on the floor, changed the sheets and cleaned the desk, tv, dresser... Then went to the mall to check and settle some stuff...
Tuesday:
First day of school... as usual, the national anthem of all nationalities.. and of course i was the only Singaporean... Went up and was about to sing the national anthem but because there were two guys who were playin a fool and standing with me, one of the lecturers(steve henderson, music faculty's head) said to hang on and he ran up to the stage and got an amplifier and got me to stand on it so that i'll be taller... SICK... haha all the admin staff n principal and dean were glad to see me back so i got a hug from most pple... got lost in Jeff when he gave me one.. haha
Went to fitness first after college to check their price... i feel so bummed and disappointed... just missed out on the $39.95 a mnth student special! and it's now $69.95... gee... dun think i'll be joining the gym anymore... Had a "vege n pork pao" for dinner.... and lunch was a smoothie plus one quater of a muffin and muesli bar...
Wednesday:
Was told by my dean to see her for 30mins in the morning to talk about my time-table and was so not ready to be in college for a whole day... was looking forward to coming home n cleaning the floors n doing the 4 loads of washing... BUT SHE STRAIGHT AWAY ASSIGNED ME TO THE STUDIOS... n from now on, i finish 5.30pm from 8am every Wednesday for the whole year... wait... there's more... Started working on a tv programme called "Hour of Power"... editing on a linear machine... INTERESTING.. makes me understand concepts of non-linear better... lots to remember and more to do... but oh well... first day of proper sch n brain-overload... Roger was just feeding me so much info that sometimes it just felt like blabs... managed to get a little hold of it and did up the Australian n NZ 1hr broadcast versions...
Also got a "job" for shootng n editing 4 videos throughout the year, one for each season...
Oh anyway, had dinner at Simon and Kaye's. That was nice... some proper food at last...
Thursday:
Started at 8am this morning as well... went straight to the studio and helped set up and shoot a client's job... interesting... though stuff i already learnt but good to work with other pple.. Finished shoot at around 12pm... and then did the "Hour of Power"30min version...
Finished "working/internship" at around 5.50pm and then had the next class at 6.30pm... Tonight's wasn't that bad 'cos it was more of information nite for the little chickens... so had to tell them my experience... got a call from Georgie Kelsey for the 4 video thing job. Doing this season's shoot tomorrow at 12pm... gotta walk down... :( and i still haven't done the vacuuming and washing...
finished briefing the 1st yrs at ard 9.30pm and they all left so it was just me and the faculty head and my lecturers... or should i say past lecturers... 'cos they're not teachin me this year Almost thought i was stuck n couldn't get home... thank God my faculty head could take me home... he lives about 1hr 15mins drive away frm the sch... CRAZY...So he dropped me off...
Anyways... that's about it for me this week...
First week n everyone's cruizing... BUT NOT FOR ME...
One of my major projects that the sch's thinkin of passing to me to handle is a US$800k project...
STRESSFUL MAN... sigh... too early to think of that... we'll see what happens but as it is, i'm already tired in the first week... not a good sign...
Hope to update u guys soon...
till then....
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11:49 PMY
Saturday, February 12, 2005;
Ok... went out this morning to the beach to take photos for thexiera's family... little zac was so cute... spent about 2hrs there.... AND I GOT SUNBURNT!
Quite badly too...
anywayz here's one of the 150 photos i took...
Came back and went out with dad to get BBQ stuff 'cos he invited a few pple over for the "opening ceremony" of the bbq pit we bought a while back... and marc went to get his hair cut 'cos his ball's next friday...
Ate alot for the BBQ 'cos dad cooked Oyster omelette... yummy... n had a sausage, 1/2 a chicken wing, 1 slice of beef steak n 2 serves of greek salad... den i had 2 bowls of Honeydew Sago... Made specially by Marc...
The house is now in a mess n the floor's oily...
Oh yar i burnt a leg in my hole... oops i mean a hole in my leg... time's catchin up with me...
Marc lighted joss-stick lookin things in the backyard to repel mozzies... but i didn't see one that was behind one of the chairs... walked past it n felt somethin stickin to my leg n as if my leg was tearing.... looked down n saw the joss-stick thing stuck to my leg... PAInful... no joke man
Oh well... my last night of "freedom" n "holiday" in perth... back to the sydney days... filled with work, work, work, and more work, plus worries... let's see how i'll survive... anywayz... this could be my "last blog" for a while till i get an internet accnt fixed up... prolly will use pre-paid for a while... don't know whether or not i'll get broadband anymore... see if they've got pre-paid ones... Dun wanna be tied down to the contract... sigh... see how things go...
Finished most of my packing... just a little more and i'm done...
Till then, those who are reading, take care...
I'll update this as soon as i can... and as frequently as i can...
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11:53 PMY
Friday, February 11, 2005;
Yumm... chilli crab... n i think i've mastered the skill of cooking it... So we had about 11 crabs... gave about 12 to some other family for lending us their car... also had lobsters... didn't really do much today... woke up late n marc made breakfast... Actually i think i ate alot today! Marc made hot dog bun.. finished it all... den went out with Alice to return the car... we went to Macs for lunch.. had a Deli Vege Roll... Dyed my hair this arvo... SO NO MORE WHITE HAIRS FOR ME FOR A WHILE... but i got hungry so i had an otah bun... came back, had a lobsster to myself and then chilli crab... Whahaha greedy... ok... this has to stop when i go back... amazinly so far, i've only put on 0.5kg since leaving Sydney... Anyway i should get off here and go to bed soon 'cos gotta wake up early to go do a beach and take some photos for a family...
:)
Now showing: meet the fockers on channel 9
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10:21 PMY
I've seen the most amazing thing today... ok.. not seen... but more like felt... i've seen countless sunrises and sunsets but nothing like today's...
Picture this:
I was out crabbing.... standing in the middle of nowhere... nowhere near the shore... and as we were lookin for crabs, i saw the sun slowly set... We were out in the sea from 5.45pm onwards till around 8+pm... so there i was standing right in line where the sun was setting... Creation... kept me in awe...
Then i got to see how sea creatures work... or how the sand looks brown but when u step on it or disturb it, i becomes black... and how the crabs kinda run in circles...
I managed to catch quite a few... maybe 10? or more i think...
Anyway... i saw this odd-crab-lookin thing and i went to catch it... 'cos it looked like 2 crabs on top of each other... curiousity got the better of me.. hahaha I DISRUPTED 2 CRABS MATING!!! oopsie-daisee..
I'm usually not scared but tonite, i have to admit, at one point i got quite scared... Yes i can swim... but Alice couldn't swim and Mike, her husband is a diver... we were out with 2 torchlights, a styrofoam box, 2 cray nets and 1 shrimp net... We were trying to walk back to shore in the dark... and suddenly, the tide got high and Alice panicked... so Mike had to guide her back... leaving me with the 2 cray nets... which by the way isn't light... So there i was trying to walk back to shore... But it came to a point where i couldn't reach the ground... and the sand in that area was soft. I was tip-toeing but the water level was at my nose area... and we were still quite far out from shore... 'cos when we went out in the afternoon, it was only at waist-level at the highest... and the rest of the guys were far away from us... still trying their luck for crabs... so at certain points i had to kinda swim but the currents and winds were too strong n instead of goin forward, i went back... But thank God... i managed to get back to shore... quite a scary experience.. normally if i didn't have anything in hand i won't be that scared... but the two cray nets were not helping me...
Oh yes... anyone knows what stepping in seaweed n coral's like? It's like stepping in a pool of jell-o... Slippery.. and squishy... n u could lose ur footing... ok... just a random thought i had... haha 'cos that's how it felt...
Also... it's wierd when u can feel shrimps or crabs jumping at your legs... or swimming through your legs...
We got to the city around 9.45pm and parked the car... looked for some food but saw the lion dance troupe instead so we stayed back to watch them in action... Pretty cool... after 19 long yrs... i got to see fire crackers... BOY WAS IT LOUD...
Alice n Mike ordered a porridge, a hor-fun and some tofu thing to share... THE STUPID HOR-FUN THAT HAD MORE VEG THAN ANYTHING ELSE COST A BLOODY $16.50... daylight robbery... that's what i'd call it... craziness... and there wasn't even much seafood in it... it kinda feels wierd being back to the days of porridges costing $7 minimum... n i regret not eating You-tiao when i was back... 'cos it cost $2.50 here... :(
Anywayz... my hair's almost dry now and i'm exhausted... so till then! :)
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12:12 AMY
Thursday, February 10, 2005;
Hmm ok... so i've been having steamboat for the last two nites... Not bad... got $40 here for red packets... so that could go to the first mnth of gym i guess... haha
I broke a record yesterday... Sat in front of the tv from6+am... till 3pm... how's that! hahaha power ay? Wished i was in Singapore now... seems like all my cousins are having fun...
So i heard Clarice and Andy were discussing about coming to Australia for a break... really wish they would.... 'cos then i'll have some company...
Ok.. Simon and Kaye are asking for $180 a week... for a room...though not as big as the one i have now, but i have my own bathroom... n meals get cooked.... sounds tempting... well i'll calculate and see how it goes... next thing is how am i going to tell the gals i'm moving out?
hmm So i'm going shopping and crabbing later.. wonder if i'll get any crabs?
Clarice said the family tried frying prawns by putting coke in the prawns... wonder how it taste like? And who was the one who came up with the idea of coke and what's the logic behind it?
haha i just threw one pineapple tart into my mouth... yummy... but not the full chinese new yr mood here...
Anywayz i'm going to stop writtin here 'cos first of all i havent got much to write... and secondly, i need to go pack my things... :)
Till then...
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9:31 AMY
Tuesday, February 08, 2005;
Okok.. so here' s the verdict and continuation from the previous blog... I MUst admit... i so wanted to slap the agent... So i was telling Mag... I visit Marc, Marc visit me, we visit Dad, and the agent visit us... anyway back to the reason why i wanna slap the agent.. Just imagine this... we cleaned the house till it's sooooooooo clean... THEN SHE CAME IN.. like a normal aussie... WITH HER SHOESsssss n stepped all over the floor.. den she said: "hmm the house is in a clean and good condition... But you need to do something about the garden..." Then i thought to myself... RIGHT... IT'S bloody summer... with freak weather, and because it's summer, there's water restrictions so you can't water the plants everyday at anytime u like... SO how do u expect the grass to grow and be GREEN... obviously like other places, the grass will be brown... with some places even being burnt up... SO U SHOULD BE GLAD WE'VE STILL GOT A BROWN GRASS PATCHED GARDEN... besides... majority of the backyard's still green... Raahahhhhhhhh....
Spent the afternoon sitting in front of the comp and searching up on cars... Made a wrong choice for lunch... had half a can of DYNAMITE HOT MEXICAN BEANS... with 3 pieces of cornthins... but it left me sick... been having upset tummy for the whole day since... bad case of no. 2...
WEnt for steamboat dinner at one of dad's collegue's house with 3 other airforce students... if i can put it in a nice way... 3 of the FOC... full of crap... so much nonsense.... haha but quite entertaining and funny...
Ok... suddenly i'm feelin a little homesick 'cos Mindy's juz tellin me online about reunion dinner at some hotel... heard the family occupied 4 tables... woah the Tan territory... heard that Aunt shirley who's still recoverin from her surgery "lou hei" 4 times at 4 diff tables whahaha good on you!!! :P hmm no "lou hei" for the 3rd yr... ok... no complaints... at least Marc and Dad's around and we had steamboat... i think i ate less then 3 tablespoonfuls of my rice... gave the rest to marc... actually he only had half and the other Mark one of the students wanted to finish the rest but i gave it to Marc instead... 'cos i felt paiseh about someone else eatin my rice whahaha... :P ok confusing Marc, Mark. When they said anything that sounded like mark, the two would turn their heads... quite amusing really..
Oh yes... i suddenly feel so old... 'cos Aunty Casey (Dad's collegue's wife) has her family here to visit and her neice just finished her O's n waiting for results... then as we were driving back, it dawned on me once again i've graduated from Sec sch for 4 yrs... OMG... :
haha ok... it's late... should go to bed...
Till then... HAppy new yr once again to u all out there...
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11:14 PMY
Hmmm... i'm sitting in front of the computer waiting for the real estate agent to arrive... house inspection today... and the tv behind me's talkin about some bodies ignitin by itself... wierd science... God knows what time the agent will arrive... spent yesterday cleaning the house... haha can consider it spring cleaning in time for NEw year i guess... went out for lunch with Alice in the city... Had Jap food at this place called Taka... CHEAP FOOD n nice too! haha Had Katsu don... $4.50 for a small... couldn't believe the price... and i couldn't even finish it.. ok... prolly won't be enuff food for marc or anythin... but more den enuff for me... then went to the Yong Tau Foo stall in the city to buy groceries..ok not for me but Alice had to get stuff for their steamboat...
Got pretty annoyed there 'cos it was so crowded, everyone trying to get stuff for Chinese new yr... Not so much into it anymore 'cos the last time i was around for CHinese New Yr and not alone was 2yrs ago i think... kinda immune... i was lookin at all the chinese new yr goodies but didnt want to buy any and dad won't buy any... Think it was written on my face that i wanted to eat them so bad... Haha alice bought some for our family... so we've got a tub of love letters.. (i still have no clue why it's called that)... Kueh Bangkit.. Peanut candy... the currypuff lookin thing with peanut filling(Yumm... my fav... n aparantly dad's too... 'cos that was the first he opened) .. a nian-gao... and one tub of pineaple tart thingy...
haha ok... cheesy lookin ay?
there's marc with dad's glasses trying to look like an old china man...
This weather's a freak... one day's hot... the next day's cold... yesterday was cold and so it today... Oh yea we went to Mike n Alice's place for dinner last nite.. abt a yr since i last ate Mee Rebus... Dad wanted to stay home to clean up the house a little more so he said marc n i could go... First time i'm driving his car without him in it... Marc says i should be proud 'cos another guy (Mark Seow) who's had his license for quite awhile isnt even allowed to drive his car... hmmm came back around 8.45.. stayed back to finish watching The X Factor... a show like Australian/Singapore Idol... some of the pple were hilariously embarrasing. Some even painful to listen too... Came back and sat in front of the computer to try and blog but was really tired n was havin dizzy spells... so i told myself i'd do it in the morning while waiting.. .SO here i am doin this...
Signin off for now and might blog later if anything interestin happens...
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8:51 AMY
Sunday, February 06, 2005;
Right... exactly one more week of holiday... then i fly to Sydney... The stress n worries are also starting to set in... Yes... this yr would see me spending much more... 'cos first of all i'd need a car and an internet connection to even start workin towards passing this yr... just did a rough calculation... Internet connections for the year will roughly cost $1879.40 and add to that... i have to renew my student health cover once i get back for visa reasons... that's another $370... and the normal rent of $120 a week.. not inclusive of food... which could easily come up to $50 if i'm tight on food... and not eat out... dad's already paying for my mobile $89 on a good month... $100+ on months of production... Won't see me buy any more clothes for a while... i think i've got enough to get through winter and the rest of the cold seasons... Was thinkin of joinin the gym at the student rate but not sure of it anymore... think it might be 30+ a mnth... or was that for a week? i dunno gonna check it out n do my calculations properly... I THINK I'LL REALLY NEED TO WORK... a weekend job or something to help pay up for stuff... The car's prolly gonna cost $8000... and then the upkeep of a small car... could possibly come up to $200 a week...
Ok... at this point when i'm looking at all these amounts... dun mind me sayin this but i just have to let it out.... SHIT.... on a rough calculation, that's like $1395 a mnth.... That's considered minimal spending... and that's like close to $17k a yr.... NOT INCLUSIVE OF SCH FEES...
I'm starting to regret furthering my studies... i feel like such a burden...
Sigh... Hopefully i can get a job... help ease off the financial side... not going to be choosy about jobs anymore... No more cafe jobs for me... but i dun care if i have to work in a supermarket or a clothin shop anymore... Ideally, i can get like a photography job or dun even mind an office job really... Maybe i should go hassle one of my lecturers... see if he has any lobang for cameraperson jobs...
Ok... i shouldn't be worryiin some would say... BUT I CAN'T HELP IT... Just look at that staggerin amt of buckaroos i'll be spending...
Anyway, spent today just sittin in frnt of the comp...
Had fried kuay teow for lunch... dad cooked it... looks like a while more before i get to eat it.. dun think i'll be cookin it in Sydney... Hayden's mum called... gave me a shock.. 'cos i wasn't expectin her to call... or even have my mobile number! anyway she juz wanted to re-assure herself.. think she's worried about Christie... and things aren't going as well as planned... i dunno how things will be like for me in a wk's time... I should have touched down in Sydney by this time next week n on the way back to my sydney home... can't say home to me anymore... 'cos i'll get confused... which home i would ask... the one in sydney? in perth? or in Singapore? OR GOD KNOWS WHICH OTHER HOMES I'LL HAVE IN THE FUTURE...
MOnday after i get back will be busy, tryin to tie up all the stuff i have to do before college starts at 8am on TUesday... NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING TO STAND IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE SCH N SINGING SG's NATIONAL ANTHEM ALONE... if there aren't any other singaporeans... doubt there will be hey... but who knows...
Played badminton in the arvo, den came back to go to church... So much for the badminton... i had a slice of pizza n a few mouthfuls of the kuay teow... a few swags of dad's coke... and a can of green tea... Sigh.... need to be strict on what i eat again when i go back to Sydney... hopefully that could help me spend less on the food... but the first week will be quite bad.. gonna have to buy all the basic necessities like butter n rice again...
Those of u reading this... PLS PRAY FOR ME... I HAVE NO CLUE HOW I'M GOING TO PASS THIS YR WITH ALL THIS ADDED STRESS.... a huge jump frm how much i've been spending the past two yrs... haha and this keyboard's beginnning to sound a little strange.. i hear rattling when i type... maybe i've been blogging too much?
Ok.. time to go to bed n try not to think so much....
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10:48 PMY
Saturday, February 05, 2005;
Haha juz came back frm the city... i juz realized how exhilarating drivin at 100km/h can be... never really got to me but tonite was quite fun... had thosai... SO Ex... meal came up to abt 72buckaroos... we calculated and dad said they could possibly earn 250% frm each thosai sold... hmmm anyway... juz before we left, the indian guy said to my dad: "Your daughter? Come i give her a sweet..." I stood there stunned... n he said:"Come, let me recommend u one..." He took some brown lookin thing covered in coconut and gave it to me.. Marc commented later that it looked like shit... Right.... took a bite when i came home but it's soooooooooooo sweet... 4.50 for a cup of teh tarik... 2.50 for one prata... 6 for Mock curry... tasted like mutton rendang but the meat tasted yuck... made out of tofu... eeekkk... loved the thosai... hahah
Looks like we've got to leave the windows open tonite... IMAGINE THE SMELL OF SPICES OOZIN OUT OF YOUR PORES.... hmmm
Saw some really really silly caucasians... we were laughing at them 'cos they were drinkin wine and booze with their food... can you imagine burping afer drinkin and having that curry taste in your mouth... YUCK...
hmmm My hair smells like spices now...
Ok... think i shall leave it here... juz thought i'd come on and kill some time
:)
PEACE OUT...
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9:22 PMY
It was sooo hot yesterday... drove to the city with alice to get some stuff... we were only in the car for 45mins... BUT WE GOT TANLINES FROM OUR SHORTS!!! Horrible sun... had mee pok for lunch... but only ate a few mouthfuls.. took the rest away for marc's lunch. wasn't feeling too well 'cos of the heat and before i left in the morning, i had some yoghurt and a jap ice-cream thingy... the one that's like a small ball? Anywayz came back n juz chilled in front of the tv n dozed off until i got a call from Hayden... went online and marc came back with his friend... His friend thought I was 14... don't know whether or not to feel insulted? WEnt to Alice's place for a swim at 5pm 'cos it was way too hot but the water temperature in her pool was like 34deg... Imagine this, when it was ard 7pm and the temperature was dropping quite rapidly, you could see steam coming out of the pool... learned how to do backrolls in the water yesterday so drank quite a bit of water in the process of learning it... But i did so many i got tired at the end n i thought i was going to dream that i was doing backrolls and backflips... another of dad's collegue picked Alice, Marc n I up from her place and dropped us off so we could have a shower... We then went to McCafe with Alice, dorothy and mike 'cos dad didn't cook last nite as he was too tired... I had 2mouthfuls of marc's fillet-o-fish and 2 of his nuggets and shared a carrotcake with him... we then went to one of my other dad's friend's place 'cos they had hired a boat for a boat dive and they wanted to take a look at the boat. The boat's huge... 225horsepower boat... and they had difficulty towing it with a Discovery... haha
Came back around 10.15pm... and almost immediately fell asleep in front of the tv... washed up and went to bed... Marc said the neighbours were partying all night... but i heard nothing... guess i was too tired...
Got up quite early this mornin and had prata n curry for breakie... den had curry rice for lunch.. AND I FINISHED A WHOLE MANGO... hahah :P suci... can u send some mango tango over pls???? We're going out to the city in 10mins and i'm driving... wonder how dinner will be like... going to this new indian place for thosai...
It's Christie's (Hayden's sister and my new housemate)
first day in Sydney... she'll be sharing the room with Bek and i wonder how things will be like and how bek n christie will feel? Hayden said Bek's cousin kate was ard too.. n she was sleepin in my room... was quite shocked 'cos i heard nothing from the gals about any other visitors just like the same incident with Bek's friend Matt yes he may be a nice guy but i've never seen him or met him and i was not given any warning... but apparantly.. she'll be ard till 16th Feb... 3 days after i get back... Really gonna be a crazy house... I'm glad i'm not ard till the 13... but then again... if i was ard, maybe none of this would have happened...
I dunno why but i suddenly feel violated... guess i'm just not used to pple juz going into my room and using my bed... and all my stuff in my room.... Oh well.. i dunno... maybe i'm juz plain selfish? someone who's reading this... tell me if i'm just selfish or do i have th right to feel this way?
For some reason... I'm feelin like i wanna just stop everythin... go back to SG, in the comfort of a own home... with friends and family ard, no transport problems... Sigh...
Maybe i've gotten so used to the past 11wks with family and friends... i'm not really lookin forward to having spend a yr alone again... and this time could be worse with added responsibilty... Wierd... i've got a ringing in my year... Occupational deafness they call it...
Ok... shall stop here for the time being before i talk myself into more depression and sadness... Going off for dinner!
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6:30 PMY
Thursday, February 03, 2005;
Can't believe this weather... it got to around 39 Deg today... Anyone got sunburnt lips before? Or fever blisters? That's how my lips feel like... the amount of water i drink or amount of medicated lip balm i apply doesn't help... And i've not really been in the sun! Sat in front of the comp the whole of this morning with the fan and cooler switched on... BUT MY SHORTS WERE WET FROM SITTING... YUCK.... And i did not even move much...
Managed to finish one graphic design this mornin... not too bad considering the fact that the weather was hot, i was feeling yuck and short-tempered... and i only spent about 15mins on it... :)
I've put on so much moisturizer it's not funny but my body, face, hands and lips still feel so... dehydrated... if only i could have like a drip or pump to have an endless flow of water...
juz look at how shiny my hand is...
Late night shopping tonite... GOODY... finally got some groceries... didn't have much food left in the fridge...
I'm going to be nice the next few days and water the backyard since dad just added fertilizer and grass seeds... the poor grass outside's turned brown... and grapes have dried out...
Think i need to spends some time doing more graphics... haven't done some in a while so kinda lost touch... Hmm juz got an email from college... they lost my documents :( NOT HAPPY JEN... i spent about 15bucks to get it posted early so i didn't have to worry about it... but they can't find it now... When i called earlier to check, they had it in hand... sigh... guess i'll juz have to send it again... or wait till i get back...
Just realized i've got quite alot of things to get done on Monday before i start school... gonna be so tired... plus jet-lag and everything else....
How quickly has time passed? 10more days in Perth... den i prolly won't get a chance to see marc or dad for a year... same for mum n mindy... and my friends in SG... 10 more days till the end of my holiday... DEN IT'S BACK TO WORK WORK WORK AND MORE WORK... mixed feelings... sigh... hopefully i can cope when i go back to that lifestyle... plus the added responsibilty... see how it all goes...
Hope u guys out there reading this blog had a good day...
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9:26 PMY
Wednesday, February 02, 2005;
Ahh it's so hot n dry in Perth... wished i was in Sydney 'cos it was raining today... Drank so much water but still feel so dehydrated... And by 3pm... the Neverfail springwater was empty but i didn't have the strength to carry the bottle up to the filter to get it changed... so i had to sit and wait for marc to come home to change it... Not that it's that heavy... it's juz that it's high up and i'm short *ok.. i'm facin the truth here* so the higher you have to lift it... the more energy you need and the heavier it gets.. ALL THANX TO GRAVITY... anyway i've come to a conclusion that things are heavier in Singapore by about 2kg... because it's nearer to the equator...
Anyway i had such a scare this afternoon i could have sworn that i almost did a no. 2 in my pants... Marc's friends left their bikes outside the house and because i thought i will be going out before they come back, it wasn't safe to just leave it outside, considering the fact that one of it was a second hand bike but was purchased at more than 500bucks... I wanted to bring it into the backyard and the guys could take it when they came back with marc so i went out by the balcony door to open up the backyard's door... wasn't expecting any wind 'cos it was so hot but just as i went to grab one of the bikes out of the two, a random and strong wind blew and the door slammed shut... i stood there shocked and scared 'cos i did not have my mobile on me, the phone and my mobile in the house were ringing with compliments from Hayden 'cos i wasn't on the computer...plus i didn't have the house keys on me. Worse thing was, i didn't remember opening up the front door after i locked it while i took my shower... so many thoughts ran through my head while i tried to kick and bang the door open... I so thought i had to stand outside and wait a few hours before my dad's friend came to pick me up or for marc to come home from school... guess i could always go to the neighbour's, borrow their phone and call hayden to call mum to call dad to call his collegue's wife to pick me up.. how bad would that be though... 'cos i can't remember contact numbers here... Anyway... i kicked n pushed the door for a while, without checking the front door... THANK GOD IT WASN'T LOCKED... if not i would have fainted dehydrated outside in the sun... An image for u guys who have a strong imagination... Imagine a shrivelled prune... EWwww...
Came back into the house with such relief, sat down in front of the computer and guess what?! i felt something biting my leg... ATTACK OF THE ANTS i call it, we seriously think there's an ant's nest somewhere around... marc thinks it's in the CPU itself... silly... 'cos there are soooo many ants around the computer table and spraying it doesn't help... So got a few ant bites... Not a good thing... 'cos it made me paranoid and i kept thinking there were lots and lots of ants bitin me and everytime i sat in front of the computer, i had goosebumps...
Borin afternoon with marc gone to sch, repeated television programmes and not having Cousin Jen to chat with.. 'cos the past wk or so, she's been killing time in her office by chatting with me...
Wanted to take my walk to the beach but didn't 'cos the heat made me feel so... YUCK... prolly would become a piece of twig if i went for that walk 'cos it could easily take 2.5hrs... wanted to walk tomorrow too but we'll see how it goes... gonna be 38Deg for the next two days... but cold nights... 14... STUPID WEATHER....
Haha for a record, marc kinda flooded a part of the backyard earlier 'cos we switched on the sprinkler system... I know what he wanted to do... run across the sprinklers to cool down from the heat... and the hose linking the tap and the sprinkler got disconnected.. BUT WE WERE NOT WATCHING... so imagine about 5mins worth of water flowing to just one section of the backyard with an estimated radius of
Oh well... i'm tryin to kill time now by editing someone's website 'cos it's full of singlish... not that i'm great with my english or anythin but... it's better den nothin... Guess i'll juz go back to doing that and continue being bored... till then
Currently listenin to WUDING by Jay chou...
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9:28 PMY
Tuesday, February 01, 2005;
oww my muscles are aching... 2nd time in a gym in two yrs... Power huh.. hahaha would love to go more to the gym but if i were to sign up for gym membership in Sydney, i'd walk to the gym 40mins away frm my house 'cos there isn't a bus there... and i wont have to go the gym for a workout... ANywayz.. i spent about an hour working out and then sat in the jac for about 20mins. How smart of me to bring everything except for extra shorts... jumped into the jac with the shorts i wore there... didn't think about after... and thought about it only after i got into the shower... I'm starting to think i'm turning into DOry from Finding Nemo... Went for lunch after with Aisah and Marc and then came home to do 3 loads of washing... supposed to vacum the house too but my muscles would not allow me to.... Had a bit of a scare 30mins ago. Marc starts school tomorrow and just found the the special school bus he normally takes has stopped services around our house area.. made a few calls but no one answered and then dad managed to get another housewife to help us out for tomorrow... Hmm he really should prepare himself next time... i can't believe how calm he can be... if i were him, i'd be bursting my top... Ummm n for u who are reading this and are dirty minded... i dun mean top as in shirt... i mean top as in brains and head and what nots... ok... abit of a gross image i'm getting here... imagine brains splattered everywhere... okok... better stop there before i push the boundaries too far... and i think for once, it's 11pm and i'm not in bed... Hooray for me but can't make this a habit... imagine going back to Sydney and having to go to bed around 7pm in this Timezone (Perth n Singapore) not going to be a good thing for the first week or two...
I don't know if i'm lookin forward to going back... i hate this feelin of having to uproot myself so many times juz as i'm starting to get comfy...
ANywayz enuff of ranting.. think i'm getting old... can't stand cold anymore... i'm wearing a jacket in this weather... Wierd for me... but guess there's always a first.. wonder how i'll be like in winter.... Till tomorrow...
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11:24 PMY
