Sunday, May 29, 2005;

grrr... fever blisters... fever... sore throat... blocked nose that runs like a tap... dizziness n blurred vision...looks like i'll be seeing the doctor on tuesday if it still doesn't get any better... wonder how i'm going to cope on cameras tonite? will be using the 44x lens somemore... slightest movement will be magnified... think i might go get some lozenges before i go pick Campbell up... couldn't sleep in this morning... body clock woke me up at 6.30am... -_-

i'm sitting in front of the heater and wearing gloves...
ok... i'm really bored... i've packed all i can pack for Monday's move... won't bother packing clothes... just chucking them in the back seat of the car and bringing it to the new house...

went for the acting night last nite... was good... supposed to shoot but i ended up getting Josh to shoot 'cos i was feeling pretty bad last nite... I ended up just doing stills... the play was called Permission to Laugh... it was quite hilarious i must say.... ok i think i'll go get a drink now...

will update when there's more stuff happening... haven't been social or anythin 'cos of this cold and busy life...

Pam said last nite that they cannot let me go... haha

I wanna clean my car too... it's so grotty... but maybe i shld wait till i feel better n after the move?
or maybe i'll just vacuum later... we'll see...

oh i forgot to mention... to those interested.. tonite's live recording is bigger than Benhur... on normal days we have 3 cams in the auditorium... had 6 cams for the youth album record... supposed to have 8 for this record tonite... but 2nites ago during rehearsals... Pst phil decided he wanted more... SO NOW WE'VE GOT 10... ummm *speechless* 1 crane, 1 dolly track and mine with 44x lens... the rest will be with 18x lenses...

I must say... this cold's doing weird stuff to me... had a craving for a banana cake yesterday so i went and got one from the bakery... then this morning when i got up... had cravings for banana again... so i had mashed banana on toast... and creamed honey on toast... Oh and i haven't gotten over the cheese crave yet... it's still ard... i wonder what they're gonna feed us for lunch n dinner tonite 2hrs countdown till i leave...




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Friday, May 27, 2005;

shit... 2nd round of cold... NONE OF THE STUPID MEDICATION'S WORKING... and i've got to go for rehearsals tonite and the big record's on Sunday... another shoot tomorrow nite as well... -_-
Then moving on Monday... it's all happening i tell ya...
Need to start packing but my body's not co-operating...




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Wednesday, May 25, 2005;

Hey...
Just did dubs over dubs today.. and had most of CCTV Studios to myself 'cos everyone was away at meetings or training at around 4pm... went to the other office and ended up chatting with Kesty, Pam and Sarah... funny people... Pam reckons i owe her a box of chocolates and an asian meal for being our reference for the houses...
Jeff's been away quite a bit, overseas and being really involved in the album producing... so he's hardly with the SCA stuff... he asked if they missed him and they were like oh yea... and they decided to play a prank on him... hahaha

They made a life-sized doll... stuffed jeans and shirts with old clothes, made a coloured photocopy of his face, and put one "leg" on the desk like he normally would and play the music he normally plays... a "stand-in" for Jeff... haha it tricked a few people... pple who were always looking for him 'cos of the recording... pple like Kerry, stephen and ryan smith... hahah 'cos the back of the chair was facing the door, they would talk until they realize there was no response and it wasn't the real jeff... whahaha

ANyway... i just came online to tell those of you who are reading... WE GOT ACCEPTED FOR ONE OF THE HOUSES>.... 10mins drive away.. so not too bad... hopefully we can get internet there.. :(

will take some pictures when we move in and will post it here...
Moving Tuesday... -_- after the recording of course... next thing on my mind.... money... hopefully i can sleep tonite... hopefully ashley won't wake up being sick and all...
Tomorrow's going to be interesting... will be busy from 1.30pm onwards... laying down cables for the equipment... "fun"... MUDDY HANDS AND DIRT>.... eeek... Oh welll has to get done... then i prolly will try to leave around 5pm to pick up the gals... and go down to Ikea... MORE PETROL USAGE -_-...
anyway no complaints...
will update when i can... ;)




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need to stay sane as i listen to this tv programme on the dub for the 4th time.. -_-
Spent most of last nite thinking... i don't know... feeling abit confused... think i passed the flu to the gals too? think there's a bug going around... 'cos ashley was unwell last nite and at ard 1am started crying and screaming like nobody's business...
I'm supposed to be getting replies from the real estate agents today regarding the applications we've made for the houses... i hope we get at least one... went out to watch Star Wars last nite too.. Who said u have to watch the rest in order to understand the movie... i've never seen the rest but thought it was a nice little story in itself... loved the gadgets and technology in the show though... and i've concluded that all robots are depressed... just like the one in the hitch hiker's guide to the galaxy... 3 days to go before the major live recording... feeling abit stressed... -_-
Ok the stupid studio phone's ringing... but i'm procrastinating... NOT GOING TO ANSWER ahahah the rest of the guys have gone out for a meeting so i'm the only one here...
the car desperately needs a wash but not much point 'cos of the construction... grrr the dust... The squeeking of the brakes seem to be getting worse as well... maybe i shld get that checked??? used abt 1/4 tank yesterday going to all the agents office to hand in applications... Sigh... i hate looking at the meter drop all the time... i hope we get the closest house to sch... i'm so used to having to drive only 3kms away... save on petrol... think we're having lamb chops tonite... started wearing a scarf again today...
2 asthma attacks yesterday... THANX TO THE COLD... and my back's stuffed...
oh well... i'm going to go over to the theatre now to get some things settled...
Shit... Stephen just walked in and gave me a shock... YEA THANX FOR NOTHING....
ok... Going off for now...




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Tuesday, May 24, 2005;

Hmmm thought i'd leave a note so people know i'm still alive... not kicking... still down with the stupid cold... Left immediately after service on Sunday nite and did not stay for the college cafe connect... was so tired that i stood in front of a car trying to open the door only to realize minutes later IT WASN'T MY CAR... Yesterday was alright... got to college around8.45am and started working on the TV programme... didn't finish till 6pm and didn't even take a break for lunch... And it's now 7.30am...trying to get some stuff done BUT THE PHOTOCOPIER MACHINE's NOT CO-OPERATING... grr... will be dropping of the house applications later today... hopefully soomething comes up soon... getting desperate... and we'll bbe having Jeff's class in the Jellyfish cafe too... wonder who's driving and maybe i can scab a ride... dun feel like driving there today...
The construction outside for the new building's so noisy... 7.30am for goodness sake... I can hear the window frames of this office vibrating... and the ground too... not to mention... the "beep beep beep beep" sound from the stupid thing as it's reversing...
I tell you, this cold's doing wierd stuff to my body man... I've been craving cheese the past few days... eating chunks at a go... AND I FEEL LIKE EATING MURTURBAK, ROTI JOHN, DOSAI, AND INDIAN ROJAK NOW...
Oh well... going back to what i was meant to be doing... editin.... -_-




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Saturday, May 21, 2005;

Sigh... the cold's not getting any better... i'm sitting here and typing while trying to finish up the cold medication that comes in a sachet... LEAVES A HORRIBLE AFTER TASTE... but it works and puts me straight to sleep... so why not... went house hunting again and the weather was crazy... freezing cold the last week and today, it was so hot... Was supposed to meet the gals at 7am BUT I OVERSLEPT again... they got here at 7.10am and called my phone, which woke me up... i changed and washed up and was out of the house in 5mins... Second time this week... Kaye said my body's definitely needing the sleep... Anywayz... we'll be applying for 4houses... dunno whether or not it will be approved but oh well... things should work out eventually... We went for breakfast at On Shore Cafe... and i had sausage and eggs with mushrooms and a hashbrown... It's been a while... ended up not having lunch 'cos i was so full from breakfast... Finished viewing houses at 2pm and then went straight to college to do the photo shoot for Hayden... -_- got home at around 4+pm and sat in front of the tv and fell asleep until the family came back...
They then went out again at 6.30pm for dinner so i'm home alone... i had 2 slices of ham and 2 Lettuce leaves, plus 3slices of cheese and 4 crackers for dinner... plus a drink of water... and now that yucky "medicine drink" no appetite and just feel like passing out...

Thank God I was smart... took the medicine after i got home from dropping off the phone at my old place... It's taking its effect already...

Oh yes Simon and Kaye went out last night for dinner with a bunch of friends... so i babysat the gals... My theory was not right... 'cos the last time they went out, Ashley went straight to bed and did not even come out of the room... unlike her normal days... so i disturbed them and said maybe it was because she knew that they weren't around to play games with... Anyway... SHE CAME OUT OF THE ROOM MORE THAN 10 times last night... kept putting her back to bed... and i gave up... she ended up lying on the couch with Me and Keiko as we watched Serendipity... you could tell that she was tired when she was coming in and out 'cos she had heavy eyelids... plus she was at day care before so she should have been weary... Ashley finally gave in to her tiredness around 10pm and fell asleep on the couch... i transfered her to the room and waited for Simon and Kaye to come back... they got home around 11.30pm and i went straight to bed... without any thoughts...
And it was nice of her to give me some money for it... 'cos i wasn't expecting any...

well it's now 9pm... guess Mum's not going to call tonite... maybe i'll go "pass out" in bed...




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Thursday, May 19, 2005;

So... Stephen reckons i'm turning obnoxious... 'cos during Lunch... there were quite a number of us at the table... Anita was eating her usual pack of chips and i'm like :"ANITA U NAUGHTY GAL..." which gave him a shock... den a guy walked up and accidentally kicked his chair but didn't say sorry till later... and when he did, i mumbled jokingly while pretending to flip the table over in anger:"SORRY?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN SORRY?!" hahaha hey i'm getting good at this.. maybe next yr i should study Acting instead! ahaha juz jokes...
Anyway back to the more serious stuff... still not having any luck in finding accomodation... and i've decided to look for a place with Anita, Beth and Ivonne so there'll be 4 asian students... it will be cheaper for all of us... but Ivonne's never lived out of home for a long time so could be a bit tricky... plus the fact that she's just only turned 18, and is from a rich Chinese Medan Family... but should be alright... She just cant make up her mind... She wants to stay near the city but also near college... AND UMmMmm... DUN THINK THAT's GONNA HAPPEN... all 3 gals will be out in the city on the weekends... except me... but my life's different from them anyway... timetable's diff... Oh well... 6more months to hang on...
Got my meeting with Jeff and Pam tomorrow... And stephen in da noon... wonder how all those will turn out... and what will happen...
Sigh...
If only Jesse's mum's place could be better... She gives that perfectionist kinda vibe... BUT has a cat.... i mean i love the place... Gym, Stainless Steel appliances and new apartment... but she doesn't like pple around too much... and would prefer if i dun cook too often... So... guess i wont feel too at home... so i'll have to turn down that offer... but $150 with bills n i dun have to worry abt not having a fridge or sofa or anything like dat but oh well... weighed the differences and i think it'll be wise for me not to move in...
Oh and i overslept this morning! Was supposed to pick Sam up at 6.45am but that's when i got up... The day before i felt all drowsy... and tired... and this morning i overslept... My body's obviously trying to tell me to slow down again... My throat's still killing and my nose is blocked... hmmm
think i'm going to bed now... tired....
Till then... for those who are reading "May the force be with u.." hahaha




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Tuesday, May 17, 2005;

Ha! couldn't sleep at all last night so i've been running on adrenaline... The weather's pretty Shiat... RAINED THE WHOLE DAY... since last nite... and when i switched on the light this mornin, A MAJOR MAJOR SPIDER ON THE WINDOW... i'm glad it was outside... but IT WAS HUGE... bigger than my... lemme see what can i use for comparison... bigger den my mobile phone... and around the size of my hand... the day started at 6.45am with the continuation of editing for the tv programme due to air in 3wks... -_- den normal classes... and we went out for coffee/lessons for Jeff's class... as usual he bought our drinks... went to a restaurant called "Jellyfish" in Manly... pretty cool place... it's layout's modern/cool/dingy look all at the same time... Had a hot chocolate... an all i had for lunch at 11am was a banana... N da last thing i ate was ard 5.45am (my 1nhalf weet-bix and milk)... Guess i didn't really have appetite 'cos of wat's happening and part of the reason why i couldn't sleep last nite was 'cos my tonsils are hurting... really badly... hurts to swallow saliva... n a bad case of headache... temp. 34.5deg... NOT NORMAL AT ALL...
Might take some pills tonite and see if it helps with the sleeping...
Jeff's class ended late ard 1.45pm when i had a meeting booked with stephen for 1.30pm... so postponed till i got back but he was busy talking to someone else... till 2.20pm, spoke to him till ard 2.30pm and headed back home to meet Hayden who was going "home hunting" with me...
WASTE OF TIME, EFFORT, MONEY AND PETROL... First place was CRAP... nothing like pictures shown online... dun even think a dog could live there... AND THE DRIVEWAY's so steep the agent said to use the steps 'cos it was raining... and boy did i find out why... the steps were horrible 'cos they were just concrete slabs stacked onto one another... AND THE TREES ARD IT WERE OVERGROWN... so it was like walking amgst a bush... coming out of the place, Hayden and I took the driveway... if u can even call it that... n i was so close to falling 'cos it was just so slippery... WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD DESIGN A DRIVEWAY LIKE THAT?!
Anyway we then headed back to Frenchs Forest and picked up Christie, Hayden's sis 'cos she had to go grocery shopping... while we killed 1hr before heading to the next viewing... groceries were alright... headed to chatswood after dropping her off... kinda got "lost"... Found it BUT NO ONE WAS AROUND... we had to park like 3streets down and ran in the rain and cold to get to that place... looked a little better on the outside than the previous place... BUT THE AGENT WAS LATE.... and we found out only after i called when we got back to the car... They were like... Oh sorry... can someone meet u there in 10mins... WHEN THEY WERE ALREADY 30mins late from the appointed time... The pics online looked alright... BUT WHEN WE STOOD OUTSIDE THE DOOR... IN THE RAIN... THE HOUSE SMELT AS IF THERE WERE DEAD RATS OR SOME SORT OF DEAD THING IN THERE... 'cos it was pretty bad and u could smell it frm the outside... We had to cross like a mini "garden" on the way... n i must have stepped on fertilizer of some sort... 'cos it smelt pretty bad too... N I DIDN'T REALIZE TILL WE GOT INTO THE CAR... :( NOW MY CAR SMELLS... i tried not to put my feet on the floor so as not to smear it.. hope i ddint get any on the carpet... CAR WASH THIS SAT... came home feeling discouraged and what nots... all the cheaper places all gone... if not really YUCK... try again tomorrow... hopefully something will come up... :| topped up petrol today too 'cos for once it's under $1... $0.97... Dunno how long that will last me... with all that house hunting... imagine using 1\4 a tank just today.... and the last time i filled up was abt 12days ago...
-_- 1 tank's supposed to last me 2n 1\2wks damnit... but maybe no such luck once i move... considering the fact that i now only live 2.7km away frm sch... grrr...




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Saturday, May 14, 2005;

Sigh... anyone knows what it feels like to just stop and settle? And the feeling of not wanting to fight anymore? Well... just found out i have to move again... Si and Kaye's decided to move back to New Zealand for good... in 7 wks... So... i've got till then to look for a new place... once again i'm tempted to find a place just for myself... so i won't have too many problems... BUT THEN THAT INVOLVES ALOT MORE MONEY... Thought i've finally found a good place where i can settle down for at least this yr till i know what's happening next year...
Oh well... what do you do... funny thing about life... everytime u think u're finally settling into something, something comes along and shakes it all up... If only i had the money to just buy my own apartment... if only i could work... and scrimp and save enough for a place... tempted to throw in the white towel and go back to Singapore where i know that there's a place where i can live in and a proper roof over my head... BUT WHAT AM I TO DO BACK THERE? i'll just be killing myself (my dreams i mean).
In a sense i'm know i'll try and fight and survive through this season... just because i think my dream's too big to be wasted on a small problem like that... life in the future will probably bring more disappointments and pain... But at the same time... i'm tired... tired of fighting... tired having people not appreciating... tired of how sometimes u wanna say what u feel and really think but not being able to do so... tired of being away from family and security... tired of always smiling and saying everything's alright... when sometimes... it's really not... tired of when u finally say how u really feel and people think it's just silly and pushing u off, as if it's nothing too serious...
Oh crap... this entry's sounding abit too serious... and my eyes are starting to sting... and i think i'm really feeling homesick now... Shit... it's like close to the end of the 4th yr of me being away... but it's only started to just kick in and hit me in the face... I HATE THIS...
I miss the times i could just call people and talk if there are any problems...
and this bloody weather's not helping... the cold... and dark skies... JUST RAIN will u...
Kaye just knocked on the door... n saw my eyes... How embarrassing...
anyway i think i shall stop here before i really get too depressed that i can't dig myself out of the hole...




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Thursday, May 12, 2005;

6.42am, i'm sitting in front of the Monitor in the edit suite procrastinating... actually did quite abit of that this week... and boy has the week gone so quickly... why can't time just slow down abit... This week's been a little better... Saturday went back to college to do a shoot for Hayden's EP recording but ended up not doing any 'cos it was still too early in production and didn't look as "nice". Brought them lunch, hung for a bit while they recorded and then i left. Sunday morning was directing for the 10am service and did abit of editin after till around 2pm, went down to the mall and met Hayden and Christie for a movie... we caught the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy... Funny... loved the technology in it... the "ship", Marvey the "depressed robot" and THE KITCHEN'S SO COOL... u just have to stick your head in a special hole and think about what you feel like eating and it pops out right before your eyes... I would love to have something like that... Had Monday off although i was meant to complete quite a number of things... Washed my car, changed the bedsheets and put on the thermal blanket in preparation for the cold nights... AND MORNINGs... Hayden came over to print the announcement for the EP Launch and we went to college to put it up... before heading to Parramatta Westfield... someone was telling me how big it was and like I said, i was procrastinating so we went there just to chill... FINALLY HAD BUBBLE TEA... Jake was telliing me that Happy Cup in the City closed down... SO DISAPPOINTED!!!! WE kinda got lost on the way back and kept missing our turns... we went and got a video out and a snack 'cos i had the intentions to keep dinner for next day's lunch. THe family had Mary over for dinner so we didn't want to really stick our head into business too much... I kinda feel bad 'cos Hayden n I had a tiny argument in the car... actually... can i call it an argument? or a debate that almost got out of control into a heated debate? OH never mind... anyway it's over ...
Tuesday's college was good... Pam told us about her stories of when she moved to Long Island... INTERESTING... and for Jeff's class, we continued with training sessions. Beth taught on nail art, Bek DeVries taught Ballet... Bridgid taught contact dance (interesting concept but not for the non-touchy-feely person) Left almost immediately as lessons got dismissed... i went straight to Forrestville Library and borrowed a few books, thanks to Pam's lesson... got me inspired... Got home and did some research for my research paper, made a conclusion that i dug myself too deep a hole to try and climb out. My research paper will be on interactive TV and just definitions alone without going into the nitty gritty is around 20pages long in word... with Font size of 8! and i'll be getting a 60page Document from one of my old lecturers tonite! -_-
Hayden came over 'cos he had to pick up Sam from college and was bored of being in an empty house.. didn't know if he was planniing on staying for dinner but Kaye offered and i think he accepted... 'cos when i asked him online before he came, he said he was not hungry... I was out in front of the house trying to get reception and a bit of a peace and quiet 'cos Jian Ming called.... we had a bit of a chat... really nice of him... after dinner, we ended up watching Survivor and CSI... when Hayden left, i went back to doing my work...

Yesterday was a long day -_- started before 7am, had about 15mins break for lunch and finished ard 9.20pm... It was Marc's birthday too... SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARC... hahaha i was telling my friends it's my little big brother's birthday... 'cos he's younger but bigger... called him while i was driving home and he said something about LLC syndrome... Long Lasting Cough... WHAT NONSENSE.... haha what to do... he's my bro and we're FOC..
Got home, had a bowl of soup... and 2 chesse crackers, watched abt 5mins of telly... Revelations... got a little too freaky so i decided to go and do some work... managed to finish another chapter of the required reading boook. 2 more Chapts to go... had problems falliing asleep... 'cos of my back ache...

Don't know what's wrong but i keep waking up at 1.59am thinking it's 5.30am and time to get up... It's second night in a row... ummm DOESN'T LOOK RIGHT.... grrr.... got a shock this morning when i looked at the clock 'cos it was the same time as the night before when it happened...
Also realized that this year, from the word go (once i wake up) i power through the day... it's like i dun really stop... shower, breakfast for (5-10mins) and watch news at the same time and go straight to college, power on till i get home.... Wonder what my body's really thinking.. wat's it trying to tell me now? 'COS I CAN FREAKIN' HEAR ALL MY JOINTS GRINDING AGAINST EACH OTHER.... FROM MY NECK, TO MY BACK, HIPS, KNEES, ANKLES, SHOULDERS.... sounds like it's falling apart... never had to crack my back so much before... or my shoulder for that matter... could it all be catching up on me?

Ha ok... time to stop procrastinating and get back to work... THIS CHAIR'S REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE... 30mins more before Chapel... so i've got that time to do abit of work haha




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Friday, May 06, 2005;

i feel like crap... woke up 5.30am this morning to find the roof leaking... a stupid rat or possum had chewed through the water pipe... left at 7am to go to the Australian Film, Tv and Radio School... the lecture started at 9.15am... got there at 7.45am 'cos didn't know how long it would take me but i'm glad i left early... Got there and missed the traffic so that was good... Met with one of my old lecturers there... and "networked" with a few industry people...
A wierd setting today... everyone at that lecture was OLD... n most of them have been in the industry for a few years 'cos u could tell they knew what they were talking about... unlike me... it was a lecture on Producing for Interactive TV... so it was all about digital... smsTV... Well... seems like Britian's leading in this...although i have to admit that some of the programmes were pretty cheesy..so much to learn... i feel so... USELESS now... all those jargons...
It was a long day... one speaker after the other, with 15mins break every 2hrs or so... left at 4... couldn't be bothered stayin for the last session 'cos i was already drifting off... feet and back was aching and i wanted to miss the traffic home... got home in 45mins... if i stayed for the last session, probably would have taken me 1hr 30mins to get home 'cos just as i was leaving the main major road, traffic started to build... and that stretch can be pretty bad! My old lecturer was only 10mins away from the building at normal time but it took her 30mins to get there because of traffic... USED A 1\4 of a tank of fuel... Wonder how much the last quarter will last me... hopefully till the end of next week? don't see myself going anywhere besides college...
Just had a thought earlier today too.. i'm probably the least sociable person in college... never good at party scenes... always busy doing something and filling my time with work... Shit... Research paper starts this term... thought I was gonna research on Lomo cams... but after today's lecture... think i might research on iTV... n IPTV... something that will be useful to me... not just a leisure thing...
Hayden came over for dinner... we had pizza n ice cream... I REALLY NEED TO GO BACK TO EATING HEALTHY... sigh... wished he could stay longer... the night i feel "sociable" i've got no one to be sociable with... so here i am sitting by my lone self... typing and having a whinge...
been so busy all week i think i might have pushed myself a bit too far now...
I've got a back pain running all the way down to my leg... and i'm a wee bit tired and emotional... SO DUN STEP ON MY TOES OR I'LL BIT...
no one to step on my toes anyway... 'cos i'm alone in my room...
Mothers' DAy this sunday... and i'm far far away frm home...
hate it when i feel so lousy... this tank of petrol better last me the week or i'm not going to be happy... IF ONLY THE WORLD RAN ON KINDNESS AND NOT MONEY... life would be better and there wouldn't be all this added stress... don't like the looks of my account... wished i could work and get some money but don't know how the "heaven" i'm supposed to fit it in...
Shoot for Hayden in the studio tomorrow.. he's recording his EP...
Oh well... i better stop writting here before i start to babble more crap... and talk myself into feeling worse...




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Thursday, May 05, 2005;

As i sit and type this entry, my eyes feel so tired that they're gonna pop...
I have to say... i'm impressed i got through today alright... no upsetting blow-ups frm me or watsoeva.
Well... a quick update... if it's not gonna be a long entry... if not... too bad :P
Monday: Went for my shoot and continued with editing. Finished around 7.30pm. Kaye kept dinner for me but Hayden was around so we ended up getting Maccers... Had my Tandoori Chicken Roll... Hayden came in to college to cut up his pre-order forms and borrowed the machine to do it in the edit suite... It's good to have company in the suite... especially when u're tired and all...
Tuesday: Did the usual, Mark Kelsey's class was awesome... Jeff was not around but Simon Ray took his class... Had Hinn do a trainin session on makin a smoothie, Lily did one on cutting paper into the word "Si" (u know, the chinese character used for weddings) It was quite a funny scene to see all the "ang mos" aka Caucasians try and pronounce the word... some sounded like SHI... hahaha couldn't help but laugh... Had Judith teach us Pigeon english... ok i know... u're like: "What the..." Pigeon English is the language used in Papau New Guinea (if i spelt that right) Quite funny 'cos it derives from english but not quite the same... For example This is my pig in Pigeon English is: Puk puk bilong em i mi...
abit of a tongue twister really...
At 2pm, i had the screenin of the video i did for the Autumn in the house session... Bernie and the ladies loved it... but i wanted to touch up a bit more so i ended up finishing around 6pm...

Wednesday was a killer... started at 8am... and was busy runnin around trying to tie things down for the 25yr Anniversary... Making lots and lots of phone calls as usual and did the labelling n courier stuff for Hour of Power, at the same time trying to help set up studio for the night shoot. The clients came in around 4pm... And we started to fix up lighting and what nots... started shoot around 5.30pm... By 8.30pm, we had only gone through 3 interviews and had 11 to go... It was in a sense a horrible night... My "big break" being a camera operator on a secular TV Show... Oh it was called "That real estate show"... we ended up finishing at 12.10am... AND BY THEN, MY FEET AND BACK WERE KILLING ME... drove home all weary, didn't dare go too fast 'cos i was about to collapse.... same for Micah n Roger... 'cos the 3 of us started at 8am... and i didn't get a break... had lunch at the same time as i was researching... Multi-tasking as usual...

Today... I got up at 6.30am to get to college in time for 8am... Micah n Roger had the morning off 'cos there was no power in the studio for the morning... I did a bit of editing, more calling, tear down of studio and preparation of Sunday's service cameras with all the timings and what-have-u... did a shoot in Pst Phil's office with him... first time i stepped into his office... Shiaza... IT LOOKS AMAZING... anyway he started singing Michelle by the Beatles... BUT WITH THE WRONG WORDS... he's such a crack up...
Oh yes... i feel like such a wally and a goose...
Micah, Roger n I went around scouting for chocolate to eat to keep us going... and i had a Malt, Honey n Chocolate Milk... which is causin my tummy some problems now... but anyway, Roger said the Milk that was branded All NAtural is not natural 'cos it's 99% fat free just as i was walkin out to get some stuff done... I turned and shouted: "Who cares about the fat content, it's the carbs that count" not realizing that in the "fishbowl", All the heads of the schools were having a meeting. They all laughed and i felt so embarrased... 'cos they heared me through the doors... So wished the ground opened up and swallowed me then...
Had the girl-life meeting again which ended at 6.30pm, came home just in time to have dinner with the family... Tandoori Chicken n rice... hmm
Anyway i'm going to stop writing here... i know... it was a long one...
Well it's kinda the only thing that lets me "wind down"... so that's why i write so much
Wanted to pop down to the mall but i am way too tired...
What should i wear tomorrow? Kinda need to dress to impress...
NO T-SHIRT MICHELLE...
Going for my course in the Australia Film, Tv, Radio Sch... and then there's an after party for industry socializing... hopefully i'll have enuff courage TO OPEN MY MOUTH N SPEAK TO PPLE... who knows what could happen... THe course will be on Producing for Interactive TV...
Quite a long drive... have to leave at 7am laters... :| so guess i'm gonna go to bed soon... catch up from yesterday's sleep...
Laters pple...




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Monday, May 02, 2005;

Hey hey...
So dinner on friday (30|04|05) was alright... I mean the food was nice but hayden couldn't decide on what he felt like eating... we first went to Sandbar in Dee Why... because Hayden suggested there... When we got the menus... he thought nothing tickled his fancy and that it wasn't what he was expecting... Besides... we had no one serve us since we sat down for 15mins or so... HOW IRRITATING... n the place wasn't even packed... there were only a few tables filled with the rest still on reserve and EMPTY...the waiters and waitresses were standing around CHATTING... Anyway we decided to walk out... boy did i have to muster my courage to walk out... felt so bad...
Their loss i suppose 'cos i dun think i'll be going back there for dinner ever again... coffee maybe... but not so soon...
We ended up in Stella BLu... which was one of my first suggestions... *flings dust off my shoulders* n I had a Spaghetti Marinara and hayden had a Risotto Something... (Can't remember the name now but it was a Seafood base)
After dinner we drove to Chatswood to watch White Noise... Hayden's suggestion...
We had an hour to spare when we got there so we walked around in a supermarket... And i dragged him into the arcade... sigh.. reminds me of the good old days... i so wanted to sit there and play some games then... like Daytona... DDR... Air hockey... Pool... Time Crisis... Marvel Super Hero and the list goes on...
But no... hayden wasn't keen so we walked around the block to check out Westfield to see if the Jap supermarket was still open... But i was right... It was C L O S E D
grrr... made me walk one big round for nothing.. after a full dinner... Yea go on... just stop digestion and let the food rot in our stomachs... hahaha...

We went into the cinema 5mins early... and of course his mobile phone had to be busy then with msgs and calls... Watching the trailers made me realize one thing from my last term classes... I REALLY CAN'T WATCH A MOVIE AND ENJOY IT THE FIRST TIME ANYMORE... i can read through the shots and tell you when something's going to happen... i can sit there throughout and tell you which design of the shot is not working and is not helping advance the story... i can predict what is going to happen to the character... Which is of course what i did when i was watching White noise... DID'T HELP... 'cos i ended up covering my eyes n ears when i knew something was going to happen n yet at the same time i'd open up a little so i still could watch? I WAS SQUIRMING THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE... i think there were a few instances i got so scared.. that i did something that made Hayden turn around and ask me if i'm ok...
And of course it wasn't helping that the show was based on Static noises and TV Screens where the dead could communicate with the living... So the hero of the story... ended up sitting in front of Tv monitors and computers... playin with sound and image so that he could communicate with the dead (his wife) and save the rest... It just reminded me of being in his shoes, sitting in front of monitors and the computer, sometimes late into the night editing... and i would hear the same noises and what nots.... crap... even typing this makes my skin crawl...
Anyway... i got so scared at the end of the movie that i couldn't drive home... Hayden had to drive us home... and of course i couldn't sleep that night... my imagination just ran wild... i remember one of my "visions" was that my car was parked where we parked when we watched the movie but when we came out, a 4WD had driven right across my car and left tyre marks down the middle of the car... i went to touch it and the metal fell off revealing a convertabile... UMM HOW IN THE WORLD IS THAT POSSIBLE? Don't know how to classify that dream now... is it a good one? 'cos i end up with a nice convertable.. WHERE I CAN PLAY THE BIMBOTIC SONG THAT HAYDEN PUT ON THE CD... REALLY LOUDLY AND BOUNCE UP AND DOWN IN MY BLONDE HAIR EXTENTIONS? *haha ok... that's n inside joke*

Saturday was alright... had a shoot in the city with CCTV people for leisure... HEY I HAD CHAR KUAY TEOW FOR LUNCH... i even got pictures! wahahaha
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I was so tired at the end of the day... got home around 5.30pm for dinner... Kaye made pizza... and at 7.45pm they had Michael n Andrea come over for dessert and games
I sat there and watched TV.. they had a brownie cheesecake... but i didn't have any... miracle... i was feeling fugly... (Fat n ugly) so i decided to stay away... Was expecting Hayden to turn up around 8pm to collect a DVD and sat around till 8.45pm when he called and said he had forgotten to drop by in the midst of all the busyness of leaving church... In other words... SOCIALIZING :P... haha i must have sounded terrible on the phone 'cos he commented that maybe i should go sleep n leave the DVD outside and he could come pick it up after...
But i was waitin for Mum to call too so i didn't think i was going to bed early...
I then went and got my shower... changed into Casual but not too nice lookin clothes (My trackies and an oversized jacket) and watched Ghost... 'cos it was the only thing on TV that was worth watching... That was after talkin to Mum. I must have dozed off on the couch 'cos i did not hear Hayden knocking on the door, but i heard Kaye get up to open the door... Boy was i in for a shock... i wasn't expecting Barclay to be around too... I FELT SO EMBARRASSED... grrr... The two guys didnt hang round long... so i went to bed after.... which was around 10.30pm i think...
Sunday was alright... As usual, spent my day editing...
And i'm just about to go out for a shoot now... well.. i'll keep updating soon.. :|

To all who are reading...Thankew for bein interested in my life... hahaha




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