OK... so i'm in the midst of trying to re-vamp my blog... kinda had problems with the old one 'cos my dial-up's so sucky i couldn't even get to my own site! So forgive me if there are any errors... i'll fix it up when i'm "free" if that can even be found in my dictionary now... or when i'm trying to wind down n destress...
Stephen said today: "Michelle, we need to find one day... if we can find one, have a chat about where things are going... and prolly have a few sleepless nites n work on stuff" NIce... Lookin forward to that ... OR NOT...
Anyway... i'm kinda feeling crappy now. Was supposed to collect the car today... so went to get a bank draft n do up all the insurance stuff... Called the guy to ask his full name for the bank draft and he said: Sipp... i read it out to him again and he said it was correct... Went ahead, paid $5.40 for a stupid bank draft, brought it to him all excited and hyped about getting a car n he said it was spelt wrongly... His name was bloody Sitt TT not PP... WASTE OF MY TIME, MONEY, EMOTIONS, ENERGY And everything else... stuffed up all my plans for tomorrow's shoot and Sunday... WALK TO COLLEGE AGAIN... idiotic with a CAPITAL I as Mag mag said... damn straight... Then i came back, tired from running around and pissed.. AND WAIT THERE'S MORE... EMBARASEMENT... EVERYONE's EXPECTING TO SEE ME ROCK UP IN COLLEGE IN A CAR DAMNIT... n my feet's not allowing me to walk much... 'cos it's really hurting... went back to the doctor again and got a second opinion frm an older doctor... WHO HAD NO CLUE TOO... n said to come back in 2 wks if it was better... in the mean time, they prescribed me with a whole heap of different medication to see which works... ummm EARTH CALLING MARS... i'm a human... not a lab rat... called Stephen Thomas, my faculty head 'cos he was concerned to tell him what the doc said n he said this: Wait??? For wat? for your feet to drop off before they do something?
Right ok... so sorry u guys had to put up with all that... i'm just a little emotional now which explains all the CAPS and RANTINGS... plus the stupid fact that i couldn't keep a secret 'cos someone managed to get it out of me through playing with my mind... Should have been smarter michelle... just walk away next time... ARgh... Hate this...
This is how it feels: Imagine waiting for something for all your life... n it's something that will help make your life so much better... so much so that even a day's delay counts? ANd you are so close to it... u smell it, feel it, see it, touch it etc... even hold the keys to it... AND IT GET'S TAKEN AWAY just because of one TEEENNNNIIIEE TINY error... THAT REALLY SUCKS... Feels like a big tight slap across the face n back... RIght... it's 11.40pm... n i'm still up... haven't even prepared my shot-list for tomorrow...nice one michelle...
Oh btw, found out yesterday i made a mistake... The project i'm working on? For MTV USA? it's not worth AUD$80 000... add another zero as Stephen said... Just one zero.... GOODNESS...$800 000 WHAT AM I GOING TO BE DEALING WITH....Dyed my hair just before i got back to Sydney... that's 4wks ago now..... N I've GOT ALL THE WHITE HAIR COMING BACK... NOT FUNNY AT ALL..... tried to Sleep-in this mornin but to no avail... still got up at 6am... body clock...
Oh well... i should stop here n go start on my shot-list... hopefully things work out for me tomorrow n i'll just have to hang on for another 2days... or 3 i should say...
Smell of freedom...
