2nd night in a row that it's almost 2 n I'm still up... had 1 hr sleep last night as there was too many things going through the head. Just got home from helping Ting's sons with their school art project... so I spent my entire evening Cutting and Constructing Pyramids, creating "humans" with wire... the boys went to bed at 11am but I kept going, and ended up at the same time chatting with Ting till 1.15am.
I don't think I'll ever understand how she feels... losing a loved one and having to bring up two full-on kids, and at the same time, have the kids ask difficult questions like, Why does daddy have to die, and where is heaven? I salute her and am amazed at her strength and courage... I guess your survival skills all just kick in when you have to go through something like that... We bought her a box of chocolates and a bouquet of flowers today for Mother's Day...
So many things have been changing around me lately... and the atmosphere's been shifting... scary yet at the same time exciting... I've had a major understanding of some thing that's happening at the moment and have come to the realization of the weight of what this thing might do to my future... Hopefully in the near future, there will be good news...
Anyway I should retire to the bed that is screaming for me....
and at the same time, remind myself that THIS TIME NEXT YEAR, THINGS WILL HAVE CHANGED...
I have to drive more than an hr tomorrow to shoot a wedding... and not worth the money at all.. oh well see it as an investment, to many more recommendations, AT THE RIGHT PRICE. -_-
